Remember I was SO excited to be going back to work. I had everything all planned out and thought it was pretty easy and very do-able. NOT!
I only worked 2 days ( well nights as it's the midnight shift )in our small family owned commercial cleaning biz.
The first night was rough but not agony, so I assumed it was just my body adjusting to getting back to being used.
I had almost 2 full days off and was well recovered and the second night was beyond horrible!
We ( me and hubby ) got home and he had to all but carry me in the house. He DID have to undress me and out me in & out of the shower ( we were hoping the warm water would help the spasms ) and get me into bed.
Now almost 24 hrs after I worked last I am still in the almost top level of pain. I took 4 Perks in a period of 4 hrs ( I know I know! ) and they did not help. I also wear a F patch.
I am so so so upset! I really thought since the f patch took some much of my pain away I was ready for this. Instead the F patch took away enough of my pain to live a "new normal" life but my old one is still gone. I know realize it is forever gone.... which is not an easy pill to swallow.
However it is time to put on my big girl pants and face up to what it really is.
I have done this go back to work countless times over the 6 yrs I have been injured and it NEVER works out. This time was much shorter then any of the other times. I usually can hang tough for at least a few weeks. I only made it 2 days with almost 2 full days off in between.
I thankfully DO have many other interests that I AM able to do. I love spending time with my grand kids and tomorrow they are moving up closer to me - for 5 yrs they have been 4 hr drive which we all know is not easy for us. Now they will be 10 to 15 minutes away.
I also love to design and manger web sites and have played with it with some minimal success. I never gave it my all as in the back of my mind I was going back to the cleaning biz.
It's hard & I won't deny it but I am really trying to be grateful for what I DO have.
Part of what makes this hard is I LOOK OK - unless you see me after working lol so when I tell people I was forced to quit my job they are like - oh did you try some Tylenol or some dumb thing like that.
OK I am just rambling now - needed to vent and wanted to update you all who were following my return to work.