Teenage brains are bigger than adults and shrink over time, boy’s brains are 9% bigger than girls but only on the basis the cavity is bigger, so proportionally girl’s brains are bigger at a similar age.
Age itself and my lack of brain cells in the first place, is defining that my loss of memory for my age is on target to be empty by the time I am 147. Although this is my reason that the medication is enhancing the pace of change most of the time I can hide the issues of the loss that I have. Some facts I can retain with great accuracy and my short term memory becoming a CD player with no disc in.
I am past the worrying stage and I have lost that as well, and my adage that I have forgotten what I have forgotten enables me to live for the now, as in the next step. Names which are part of my job are at a loss to me and I have tried relating picture to each face with little success. Anybody taking these volumes of medication would have trouble surviving at all, even without the pain so in reality our achievements are super human, I have strategies for each lack of memory I encounter, and that whirring sound in the background is my drive trying to remember anything of recent usage.
I have become a great observer based of the fact than names have gone, I do equate my capacity in spite of the constant mist and fog, the dizziness, that feeling of being somewhere except here, knowing what I would like to say.
We should all acknowledge how well we do, only we know how difficult some days can be, simple tasks done with skill, tenacity and graciousness. It is not something we talk to anyone about, only ourselves.
Take care. John
Ps, regrets are not for what you have done, but what you have not.