Ive been taking meds for almost 4 years now, increasing the dose as most of us do over time. I was just sitting here thinking What is our outcome, say in 10 years? Ive been really depressed lately cring almost every day till my kids come home and make me laugh. I just think since surgery is not an option for me, what will I be like in 10 years? Will I be in a wheelchair? My husband and I are renewing our wdding vows for our 10 yr in Disney World. 5 yrs from now. I hope I will be able to walk down the isle. My husband said all you Spiney's are invited. He says you all keep me sane. I guess Im just feeling sorry for myself. I have another MRI today for my neck as that is really giving me problems. Im really tired of this. This will be my 6th MRI. Its sad when ya fall asleep in the tube thingy.