I worked my first double shift since my last surgery today/tonight, and it was total hell. I had promised myself that I would never do another "double" but didn't have a choice, other than let my customers suffer. So I suffered thru it!
What I used to do, I can't do anymore. I took care of my customers tonight, took up the slack that employees were letting go, as usual, and I am paying for it now. I was really mean to an employee that was scheduled to work tonight, but couldn't because of being too sick, but managed to come pick up her check! And that's when I lost it! Too sick to work, but came to pick up her check!!
Sorry, but getting into that hopeless/helpless feeling that I was in a few years ago when this whole back thing really started going downhill for me. Hubby doesn't want to hear it anymore, and I just want it to end.
Again, I'm sorry for this post, but don't have anyone to talk to right now...can't sleep and I guess I am having a "pity party" I felt I had to get it out of me in some way, and.. well this is how I chose to do it.
I'm sick and tired of being in constant pain... aren't we all? We can still hope for a better tomorrow...