Hi, I am still new (just posted an intro on the new member board). I hope it's not too soon to post here. I had my microdiscectomy (spell?) on Friday and was released on Sat. I am staying at my parents until I can go home (which I am worried is a burden on them--something my father has already alluded to). I'm having a hard time just with coping with day to day things. The days seem so long. There's only so much you can watch on tv, and as ya'll know, it's hard to focus on reading. The four weeks leading up to the surgery I was somehow stronger. I was in such pain that I could not even sit up. Living flat on my back (mostly on my parents' couch) has finally gotten to me, I guess. All I know is I'm crying a lot and wondering how I can transition back into a normal life. I have some pain in my right leg, some general pain in my bo-bo, and that numbness in my foot (especially the pinkie toe) is still there. Nothing really unexpected. Certainly much better than I was. I have that to be thankful for, and I am trying to walk and do what I am supposed to do according to the doctor's notes. It's just the sadness and depression I am having a problem with. I've said things I don't mean and thought things I never would have thought.
The hospital experience really freaked me out. I'm a solo lawyer and victim advocate, so I've seen the health law cases (even though I don't practice personal injury myself). I thought I was so much stronger than all this. So many people here are so brave with their experiences. I don't know where my coping skills have gone. My history with sciatica that got me here was pretty uneventful up until last month. I had some hip pain over the past 7 years or so. I had a car accident 2 years ago which seemed to increase the pain, but as long as I avoided certain chairs and positions, I was okay and would go long periods of time without pain. Then on Monday, Aug. 11, I woke up with tremedous shooting pains in my right hip and side. I couldn't sit or stand without crying out in pain. A trip to the doctor confirmed it was sciatica, and I was given pain pills and that steroid pack to take. Nothing seemed to help. Dealing with the doctors and getting things taking care of was frustrating. The pain didn't go away, so you know the next step: MRI. Then the NS telling me I needed surgery because the L1 disc was pressing on the sciatic nerve. That all took four weeks.
I've been staying with my parents and pretty much out of my life now during that time. It scares me to think about rebuilding my life. Does anyone have any tips on getting myself back together? This website has been very helpful, and I admire so many of you for what you've been through and how you have handled it.