I have been released to return to work next week and I'm finding myself very depressed. It isn't so much that I'm not ready, I think I am physically but not mentally.
I suffered so much with pain the year before I had surgery that I took a ton of pain meds which did not make me the most accurate and easy to get along with employee.
We hired another person the year before I left and all she knows is the way I was during that time, not the 4 years before that when I was on my game mentally.
Bottom line I am anxious about returning afraid that they will have noticed the amount of errors made and are just waiting to pounce. We also got a new boss during my 8 weeks away from work.
I've used all of my leave and then some so I won't have any time off for a long time unless I hurt myself in some way and mess up what the surgeons did. I've talked to my husband about maybe quitting this job and finding something less stressful and he has a fit because he knows it won't pay as well.
Maybe I just need somebody who has had this surgery, been in pain for 5 plus years to listen.....