Hi all! I just need to vent a little!
I am scheduled for a level 2 fusion on Thursday!! YES THIS THURSDAY!! Scared??? YES! :jawdrop:
Well now to top this off, my mother in law just died!!!! :''( My husband, god love him, still wants me to go through with the surgery. Am I being selfish to still want to go forward??
My sister in law found her mother in the floor dead. She's been dead for about 3 days!! I just can't believe it! How do I get through this?? How can my hubby get through all of this too!! Not only does he have to deal with me and my surgery, being in the hospital for a couple of days, and then home recovering, trying to keep the kids happy and content, and now to deal with the loss of his mother!???
I want to be here with him during his time of need, but he says that I'm ok and that there is no need for me to have to wait for another 2 months or so to have this done. I've suffered enough he says.
What shall a girl to do????? ~X( 8}
ps. there is no wake or funeral. She is going to be cremated and small family service. Is this still selfish and mean not to be there??
Thanks for listening!
Kim :''( :''( :''(