I met with the PT today for the initial evaluation, and she was going over the basics (had the model spine and everything). I started feeling dizzy when she talked about how the disk has no edge to it now that the surgery shaved it off (discectomy) and how fragile it is. I felt so faint, that it got to the point where I actually had to lie down and they brought me a cool cloth, checked my BP and everything! What is wrong with me?
It's like mentally I've turned into a total wimp! I can't believe I can't handle the PT talking to me about reherniation without feeling faint. This whole ordeal with my back pain out of the blue and the surgery has been so frightening that I can't stand the thought of it happening again. I thought I was getting better about handling this, but I guess I'm not. I was able to finish the PT session, but now that I'm home, I'm feeling really scared, and that feeling of "things aren't going to get better" is back. I want to be the type of person who can handle things like this. I feel like I am back at square one. How do I get my sense of well-being and security back?
Thanks for listening,