So, I go to my PMs office yesterday for my usual one month visit.
As I'm sitting there, the Nurse Practitioner is looking through my file and asks if the psychologist and I have gone over the results of the MMPI that I took several weeks back. I said "No.. Why? Is it bad?"
The NP said, "Well...., according to his report, 'due to your depression' you will probably not get any relief from the stimulator, and are not a good candidate."
I told him that I am about sick and tired of "MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS" telling me I am depressed! I AM NOT DEPRESSED!!! I am sad on the days that I am in more pain than usual due to my activities. But, in no way shape or form feel that I should have a diagnosis of DEPRESSION!
Furthermore, I said, he probably just wants me to start coming in to see him (you know - can never have too many patients!) and the NP said, "Well, as a matter of fact, he would like to see you just a few times". Hmph. So, he thinks I am depressed and he can "cure me" with just a "few" visits?
The NP asked if I wanted to go through with the trial anyways. Well, HELL YEAH! I am tired of being on all this medication. Making sure I take it on time to "stay ahead of the pain" and making sure I have my prescriptions so I can fill them, and be sure I can FIND the dang things, feeling as though I am weak for having to take them, and finally really hacked off at my body for desserting me when I needed it the most.
Angry? Yeah. Frustrated? Fer sure. Depressed? Oh Puleeze. ~X(
So the NP spoke with my PM and my PM was surprised at the impression the psych came up with. So, I have another appt scheduled in a few weeks - one with my PM and one with the psych. That ought to be a fun visit there, let me tell you. My childhood was a great one. I was well-cared for, and loved. I was picked on my my 4 older siblings (isn't every child?), neither my father or any male relatives "messed with" me. I was and have always been a champion for the underdog, whether I knew them or not.... Went to a catholic school and had friends at school and around my neighborhood.
I could go on and on, but, I will save it for the "shrink". I sure do want to give him a small piece of my mind. Who does he think he is? :W
Am I the only one who has ever failed a test where the answers are your very own opinion basically? :SS
Thanks my friends. Have a good day.