I started suffering with back pain 4 years and 1 month ago, about 1 month into my pregnancy. I had various physio exercises that i did later on in the pregnancy after the pain was steadily getting worse, but all the experts told me that after i had given birth, it would settle down. It didn't, just got worse, what started in my lower back now was over a larger area (up to below my shoulder blades) so i sought various treatments - chiropractors, sports massage, physio, even acupuncture - none of which worked. I have been using a tens machine which gives me limited relief. Went to my GP, and he just turned to me and said 'Its not that bad'.!! Went to another GP, who listened to me, and was prescribed Tramadol, which for the first time gave me relief, and i was able to move around and do all the normal things i wanted to do in no pain. My tolerence to the drug soon wore off, and he put me on buprenorphine while i was waiting to see the back specialist. By the time i finally saw the specialist i was taking morphine every day, and he did an MRI scan and took some blood tests and simply said that not much showed up on the scan so they could only give me a caudal epidural. Had this in November last year, which eased some of the pain for about 6-7 weeks, and straight after i completely stopped taking the morphine. Was referred to the pain management 'doctor' in the hospital who basically said theres nothing wrong with you physically, here take some anti depressants. My normal GP who had been very understanding moved county so i was given another GP who did not appreciate the pain i was in and was focused on me stopping all painkillers (which i was doing of my own accord anyway!) even when i was in pain. Had another epidural some months later which was even more effective and for a longer period. I was only getting pain if i overdid it- walking for long periods, ironing, gardening. And by this time i had been swimming for an hour a day for a year. Had another caudal epidural which had hardly any effect at all, this was last Wednesday. I don't know what to do. My doctors seem reluctant to bother exploring any other reasons for the pain except saying that its all 'emotional', and leaving it at that. My friends and family are sick of hearing about it. I feel desperate. I have a good life, normally happy, enjoy my job, have a great family, nice house, hobbies (crafting) and am contented with what i have, but the pain gets in the way of it all. Yes i do think about suicide which when i have tried to speak to people they just then say, 'see you are depressed so it is emotional!' instead of hypothetically speaking saying someone if being tortured everyday, 24 hours a day over a period of 4 years, would anyone sane not think about it?! I am a perfectly rational young woman (31) and have my whole life ahead of me but i need someone to help me find a cure or at least define what it is. Is there anyone out there that would take the time to seriously look at my case? Fact - muscle problems such as cramps etc cause pain - its not an imaginary thing so why is it so hard to believe that maybe that could be looked into further? I woul;d be willing to take any experimental surgeries or treatments because i have a lot to live for, but i feel like there is no other way out but to end it all to end the pain – and honestly, I am a very reasonable well adjusted individual – not nuts (although maybe nuts people say that!), but I have run out of hope.