I know by being on this post that I dont have it has bad as others.I had a lambar laminectomy,disectomy L4-5 S1 5 weeks ago. I dont know if I exspected to much or was not informed enough to know what expect. I dont want to get out of bed I fill like thers nothing to look forward to. I will have to go back to work soon and that scares me, leads to loose job, loose house, loose life, etc. Its not that the pain is that bad but I amfraid of it comeing back and maybe worse. My family is not there for me and I am a single parent of a 16 year old girl. I catch myself wishing that my life would just end so I would'nt have to deal with this all on my own. Is this normaland how do I make it go away?