I can't wait until this year is over. It never seems to cease. I was injured in two separate auto accidents this past year (neither was my fault). My brother fought and lost his battle with cancer this year. In September, I had a 2 level ACDF. I am scheduled to have ALIF this month. Although I do not want any more surgeries, I am looking forward to starting a new year, hopefully pain free. I saw the end of the rainbow. That is, until today. Insurance denied my surgery. I can't imagine living like this much longer! I have been in tears all day. I am at a loss on what to do. I want my life back. How can I cope?? I don't want to be on pain meds for the rest of my life. This is just so crazy. I am not myself!! Even my kids wonder where their old Mom is!!