I sit here and wonder where and what I am going to do with the rest of my life.. My doctor has told me at this point until further notice that I was completely disabled and that I would never be able to go back to the work I was doing before surgery.. I am a chef/baker for a nursing home I cook 4 days a week, 2 meals, sometimes 3 and do all the above and beyond baking to keep my residents happy and not underweight. I also serve these meals and do the pots and pans that I might use in cooking these items. I totally understand what he is saying and I accept it as my neck is totally fused except for c1 and c2.. I am still on medical leave FMLA stopped but they let me go on personal leave till January 12. I have been praying for my Long term disability to come through as you all know and it still has not, the insurance company says that I have to pay for my records to be sent to them. I thought that was weird. A wonderful man at my doctors office arranged to have them sent to them with out me paying for it, (He was one of Gods angels and I owe that one all to God) so now they have them but of course on the reports it says I have complained of neck and shoulder pain and have been given narcotics to help with pain.. I dont know what the outcome will be,but I have given it to the Lord and am praying for another miracle. At this point he is the only one that can do anything.. Where I am going with this whole post is, I am so thankful for what I do have, and I look around and see people that are worse off than I am and feel so bad, I would love to help them. One good thing that has come out of this is Maybe I will be able to find a job that I enjoy and dont leave in so much pain I cry all the way home. I am putting my life in Gods hands and trust that he will do the rest. They say when one door closes another one opens.
I am so thankful for this sight and all the wonderful people that actually care what I am going through. You really find out who your real friends are when you are going through something like this..
Have a wonderful weekend, I am going to NH to welcome my new grandson into the world on Monday... Now thats something to be proud of.... Cyndi