Had a horrible day yesterday. Mike and I had only the 2nd fight we have ever had in the past 2 years we have been together. I feel like the underside of pond scum today. I am questioning my ability to be with anyone. I feel more like damaged goods today than I have in a very long time. I was ready to leave. I was ready to just get into my car and look for a nice overpass to run off of. I know these things are horrible to think, but the thoughts are there. Thank heavens the kids are home on a snow day because I just don't think i want to be alone today.
I have a call into my therapist..... but I really don't want to go, you know. And I know that is THE time I need to. I just feel toxic, to those around me. Who needs that in their lives?
Clinging on to the knot at the end of my rope today.
Sorry to complain