I havent posted in a day or two. I havent been posting here very long and i dont know very many people but i would like to. I have been in bad severe pain for a couple days now and last night i was up til after 1 and then back up at 5 and then 630. Thought about calling my pm it was so bad i was sick to my stomach and in tears. shoulders neck and both arms and left hand and fingers throbbing burning and aching. I figured if i called him probably wouldnt do any good or just make it look bad when i go for my appt this month but thats 2 weeks from now. i do have to call in refills and most usually i am asked if im doing okay hopefully they ask this time so i can say no please help. I dont have anyone to talk to about this or my other problems. I am married but dont want this to consume our lives. My husband used to not believe i had this pain and at times made some very hurtful remarks to me. Since then all has been pretty much forgiven. He went to doc last year and found he had ddd of the cervical spine and lumbar. his pain started and then he knew how i felt but during that time if it was ever mentioned about pain level it was like it wasnt as bad as his. Now i just dont say much at all and no info is provided about my doc visits. i keep it all in except here. to me doesnt matter each person is different in pain and where the pain is and what level it is. I take my marriage very seriousely so i keep my mouth shut about pain now. He is a very loving man i just need to blow steam i guess i dont feel well and cant take anything else for the pain as i have reach my limit. Guess im just looking for someone to talk to right now.