My topic is what people don't see in 30 minutes to a couple hours when with me. They see me smile, laugh and joke. I find a chair with a good back so I will be comfortable and able to see everyone . I sit for as long as I can until I have to move or get up. I take a pill if it gets real bad. I just end up really wishing I was just home sitting in my lazy boy so I am not causing myself more pain. I dread riding for long periods anywhere. If someone asked how I am doing I say fine. Do they really want to know. If I told them they would just think I was exagerating. I wait for the first one to leave then I am out of there. My son gets ill with others when they say things like you don't look like you have any problems. He will say you just aren't with her 24/7 if so you wouldn't say that. My little hero. I don't visit family like I want to because of this. Only holidays and stuff. I have been divorced for 2 years. I have posted myself on a dating site but only to remove myself after a few turn downs because of my physical problems. Everything else was perfect. With out even meeting me it was a no! Wow, not good for the moral. It's just lonely living with this on a daily basis. Like the old saying misery loves company. Just kidding! LOL!
About me! I have been off the this site for a long time. I am a 50+ women. This is my 7th year living with pain from a accident. I ruptured two discs plus a few other breaks and bruises. I had two surgeries to repair the damage to my neck C4/5 but still living with pain. I am really needing to talk or let go sometimes so I thought I would let it go here. I don't let it out at home around my son it is enough he sees me in pain. I journal to release but it's much nicer being able put things out there for people to learn, relate or just laugh at! My best medicine right now is as much comedy as possible!