First let me say I'm sorry for the rant/pity party. If you don't want to hear my complaints/whines just skip this one. If you feel the need to blow off steam too, join in please...then I won't feel so stupid maybe.
Ok. I have neck/head/arm/hand/lower back/butt/leg pain. I also have foot pain that I've dealt with for a long time. I've had two surgeries on my left foot and need something for my right which has always been my 'good' foot. If you've read my other post I'm having trouble with pressure in my head that feels like it could blow up at any time and would make a mess but probably feel better. It's a rainy day here today and turning cold so my good foot hurts so bad I can hardly walk, my knee hurts, my knuckles and fingers are aching. I try my best to keep it to myself I swear I do. My husband is off today and he has a virus or something so I made him go to bed, covered him up and tucked him in. He didn't ask how I feel, I didn't tell him. I know it's not his problem. It seems like everyday it's something with me. I work as hard as I can and do more than I should sometimes but still everyday it seems like something new hurts and I'll start saying oh sh*! or something. I've never cursed other than that word but lately I've been on the verge of saying some big ones and that's just not me. It's this frustration that's driving me mad!! I'm sick of myself!!! I don't know why I'm writing this and I'm sorry it doesn't make any sense. I just thought if I let it out here it'd somehow help. I'm ashamed of myself for feeling like this when there are so many worse off than me. I'm actually pretty healthy and am able to do all I need to do and more. I pay for the things I do but I feel better knowing I try. If I wasn't able to get up and around I'd have more of a reason to feel like this. I am thankful for my family and our health. My family or myself have no life-threatening illnesses that I know of and that's the main thing..I know all this. What's the point of this post? I honestly don't know. Thanks for taking the time to read it. I appreciate all of you here.