I have a fever almost everyday, DR days its OK, go get staples out Monday (will see him then). I can't seem to keep my pain in control until my next dose time. The hand thing got better, but I cant open my med bottles and my wife wants them on the child proof side. Damn, I was doing so good, I can feel my spirit breaking. The longest I have sleep has been 3 hours , but usually less. It's only been 15 days since surgery. I have no appetite, quite frankly I'm freaking out. Wife just took temp and I am normal!Took me a good 5 minute to open a Gatorade bottle last night cause I did not want to wake my wife up. . I don't cry much, but have cried more the past 2 weeks than the last 5 years. I don't even know what I expect writing this. If this ain't the bottom I got to be close. I can't even find one of those moments I was talking about. I wish somebody could help me. Dr. has me going back to the assembly line in 4 months instead of the minimum 6 he had said.I am so embarrassed and ashamed I was so OK to now be so miserable.
No DR will say I can go back to the factory, but they say I can do whatever I want. Then I ask a couple of examples and the say probably not, or my favorite you need to have realistic expectations. I wanted to enjoy the rest of my life with my wife, I was set up to retire @55
, have a pension and have always put money in my 401K. Now what, I read the paperwork before I turned it in. The only way I could afford to go out on medical for this surgery was to sell my dad's 442.I don't know what to do I see no hope. When I came up here I swore I would never live in a mobile home again, and I would never eat hominy.