so i'm scheduled for a spinal fusion on june 8th, and i have to say i'm pretty scared. its not the surgery that bothers me. its the recovery. my back has been hurt for 10 years, and has progressivly gotten worse. i consider myself stubbornly active. i probably do way more then i should. but the time has come to get it fixed. i feel right about it. but the recovery time is lingering with me. i want to recover and get back to the gym and softball. i realize my powerlifting days will be over. but i enjoy those things and am very afraid i'll never be able to do them again....or go crazy waiting for my body to be able to do them again.