Hi Everybody!,Thank god i can read about other people who have pain all day and night and feel the same way as me !
I hurt my neck surfing 3 years ago and was already on borrowed time with annular tears with bulging discs in C6/7 L3/4/5 and L5 /S1 squished together.I have beed a Surfer for 38 years and Practicing and teaching Yoga for 11 years.
Now for 3 years I cant surf or Practice yoga, my two physical loves ,especially surfing!When the MuscularSkeletal Specialist? said i cant go Surfing anymore ,I walked out of his office bummed out ,feeling sorry for myself..then i looked up and saw a guy in a wheelchair,young...I told myself to shutt up ,stop feeling sorry for myself ,be gratefull ect...Well 3 years later im getting worse and worse!,my wife does not understand at all ! Grrrr..I never moan to her.I am in pain all the time,i take 7x300mg Gabapentin,2 morning,2midday,3 bedtime..also 8x50mg Tramadol,and 3x2mg Diazepam ,have cut Diazepam down from 8x2mg a day but dont think i can lower the doses any less as i have tried but the tramadol keeps me awake and the diazepam helps me have a couple of hours sleep untill i wake up with nerve pain screaming from my neck or sciatica down to my toes. I dont know what to do next. I had 2 steroid,cortisone injections ,1st one was great for two days ,then pain was worse !specialst would not give me another for one month and when she did i had a severe reaction to the cortisone,broke out in rashes,mega headaches,hives,heat flushes and nausea not for a couple of days but two months.I am currently seeing a physio but when i try out the exercises i aggravate one hot spot,or another!
I have accupunctuer 2x a week and get releif for 4 hours.
I hope to be seeing a Nuerosurgeon soon,what do I say to him? I am so frightened of these specialists as they say to me the MRI scan shows only a small bulge with annular tears,and just wait and see..well its been three years now,and i hate to say this ,but I feel like ending my life sometimes..it is like a cruel torture ..I work 35 hrs a week and dont know how much longer i can last...I fear going to bed at night as I know I will sleep for an hour then bang! back to nerve pain again,burning searing pain down my calf to little toes...I feel like a coward saying what i have said,but i need to tell someone.What do i do?change meds? I sleep with a soft collar on my neck and a pillow between my legs..I am worn out after 3 years,I am 54 and feel like 84. Does anyone have any suggestions Please!!
Love and kindness to all,may your suffering be eased a little somehow someway..thi I pray..David