Hello to all. I am a 34 yr old women who has been through 3 back surgeries. in 2008 I had to have an emergency surgery to fix a herniated disc that left me with a drop foot. 4 months later the disc collapsed. They did an anterior fusion L4 L5. A year later I had to have another fusion. So now I'm fused L4 L5 S1. It's been almost 2 years since my last surgery and I still have pain. They referred me to a pain clinic but all they want to do is get me off my medication. I don't abuse my medication, I am very good with it. They said it has too many long term effects. I can't help feeling bad for having pain...they make me feel like I shouldn't have pain. I am a single mom of 4 kids. It's such a horrible feeling sometimes when you don't want to get out of bed because you hurt to bad. I was fine on the medication I was on. I could live. Now, it's hard to do a lot. I still have pain that goes down to my foot. Every little thing you do around the house affects your back somehow. They want to do epidural blocks in my back, and honestly I'm scared to have anything else done to my back. I just want my old life back before the pain..