Hey there - I'm new to this forum (obviously), but from the brief scan it looks like a good place, and I need to... I don't know, vent? talk? something.
I'm 34 now, and I have had back pain off and on for about 12 years. Started off as an itermittent thing, every couple of months, but it was no big deal. Got worse after 2 years or so, to the point where it hurt more often than not. First couple of years, the docs would just give me Rx for painkillers and/or muscle relaxants, which helped some.
As time went by, it's steadily gotten worse; for the last 2 1/2 years it's been all but constant, and still getting worse.
I've had scans done (most recently about 2 years ago), and I have 2 bulging discs, a couple of vertebrae that don't line up right (but aren't unstable, thank goodness), a couple of little annular tears, discs that are pretty low and some narrowing of the nerve channel. Basically a whole bunch of problems all in my lower 2/3 lumbar discs and thereabouts.
In the past 10 years, I've done multiple sessions of PT (including a round of the hardcore back group they called "boot camp for back pain"), cortisone injections (by the disc and in the facet joints), massage therapy, chiropractor visits and so on and so forth. None of the neurosurgeons I've seen want to touch anything surgically (at least as of 2 years ago).
Here's the deal here and now. I'm on a fairly heavy amount of painkillers to even get through the day. I can't get dressed without help, I can't wash my own feet, can't play soccer with my kids (or even go on a walk with them), can hardly handle a day at the office. The past 3 months, the pain down my butt, hip and leg has gotten to the point where I can't even get up out of a chair without help most of the time. I'm wearing out my right shoes at an absurd pace, 'cause I can't even lift my foot enough to walk normally anymore.
Anyway, I know, tl;dr for the wall o'text above. My life sucks right now. I'm stuck on pills I don't want to be able to do nothing I want to be able to do. I don't know what else to do at this point, and I don't know how much longer I can deal with this without losing my mind. I feel like such a burden on my family. I just want this pain to STOP for a while.
Sorry for the rant, but I don't have anywhere else I feel like I can just spew it out like that, and I needed to.