It's been a while since I have posted on here, but needed some help from people who know what I'm going through. It's got to the point that I don't leave my house unless my wife makes me. All my pain doc wants to do is keep giving me injections, and upping my dose of morphine to the point that all I want to do is sleep. My lower back hurts so bad I don't think I can do much more. But my back Doctor, who is a neurosurgeon, said there is nothing more he can do. I have a grapefruit size mass of scar tissue in my lower back that he said going back in to clean it up would only help for a little while, but at this point I would take any relief. And for my neck, I have 3 bulging discs along with severe arthritis and bone spurs. The doc said I have the neck of an 85 year old, but doesn't think there is anything he could do to help me. Sorry I'm venting, but you guys really helped me before. I went to another Doctor for a second opinion, and he said yeah your back is a disaster, and your neck could be helped with surgery, but didn't want no part of helping me. I've went as far as going online to find out the best way to kill myself, but know I have a family that supports me and loves me. Sorry for so long of post, any help would be appreciated.
11 back surgeries, fused from L3/S1. Now have four herniated disc in neck from C3/C7. And two new herniated disc in lumbar at L1-2, L2-3. Passed 73 kidney stones, five surgeries on left ankle that now has seven screws in it and is fused. Both shoulders