I have noticed the last month or so I have been suffering from (for lack of a better description) a dark, dark depression. I have suffered from clinical depression, and situational depression from time to time in my life. This that I'm feeling is of a level I've never experienced. In the past I could hide it enough so that others did not know. Now those that are closest to me are expressing concern for me. I know the ongoing pain is taking it's toll, but I did not realize to the degree it was affecting me. I've been through so much with my divorce and custody battle, and I had to remain strong through it all for my kids. Now that it is all over and I can relax depression has got a grip on my like never before. This is the first time my own depression has got me worried.