I don't know where to start. Other than to say I want to vent about feeling bad but, I have to keep pausing in my typing because, typing hurts my arm.
I've been living with chronic pain for 5 years. I've been living with an allergy to opiates even longer. Put the two together and what you get is a life dictated by pain. Like it or not.
What drives me crazy is when people compare their pain to mine and judge me for not being able to do what they can do. What's maddening is knowing that my health care is limited by the coverage I have.
Pain might decide how much I can do in a day. How far I can walk. How long I can sit or even sleep. But, pain doesn't dictate the way I think about it. I figure I have to find and make the most happiness I can with what I have. So, I started taking pictures again. I do what I can. And when I can't.. I don't.
But, today is one of those days where I want to do more than I can and I'm frustrated. My plan? I'm going to have a nice dinner. And then I'm going to put on a movie. Maybe one of my favorites. At least those choices I get to make.