Hello, I don't even know where to begin. I have had back pain off and on for years. 2 and half years ago I was becoming a regular at my doctors he sent me to a chiropractor who worked with me for a couple off month. I drive school bus and he had told me that it was do to my job my back would get some what better when I was off the bus for 2 weeks or more but once I was back on it started again.,My chiropractor talked to my doctor and referred me to a neuro. I went and had 6 different doctors look at me. I found one who is suppose to be the best in my state. He told me I would need surgery but thought that I was not ready since I was only 40. He said mentally I was not ready. He sent me to pain management and said I will see you when they can no longer do anything for you. At first I was told I had stenosis and bulging disc. I did PT and had epidural injection. In my last injection I told my pain doctor it did not work last time and he said he wanted to show me something. I no longer have any disc left. I am in pain all the time. My legs go numb and my hips hurt all day long it hurts to sit or walk. I had to quit driving busing and I work at retail also and after 4-5 hours I am in tears. at night I wake up and can not move I have to have my husband lift my legs for me and exercise them to make them work. I go to the doctor on the 16 of Aug , but I am scared, I don't know what to do or what will happen. No one tells me anything anymore. I have not slept in months (a full night). I am so tried and I just want to sleep. But sometimes I am afraid to go to sleep, because I afraid I might wake up and not be able to walk that day. does anyone know how I feel. I lost my insurance when I resigned and now we have my husband which sucks. no prescription card. I am not sure if I qualify for disability but I know I can't go on working like this. When I work6- 7 hour shifts 2 or 3 days in a row I cant move I cry and I am sick to my stomach. I am in school also I do on-line classes hoping to get a job that I can sit somewhere. But any more siting up right is hard I have to be in a recline position. If anyone has any input I would love to here it. Thank you .