I am currently still recovering from a spinal fusion at l5 s1. It has been over a year since my surgery. I have an over growth of scar tissue at the l5 s1 and at the si joint. I have had cortisone shots. Sometimes they work for a little while. I am now just startiing to realize the extent of my injury and that I will never be the same again. I am 30. Idk wtf to do. I always tried to stay upbeat and know I would heal I know now that I probably willnever recover from this condition. I am so sad and I can't stop crying. I want to get off the meds but can't. Idk what to do. I'm pissed and I'm sad and idk what to do.