I am currently going thru a very hard patch in my life. My mother is at the end stages of her life with me being her primary caregiver. She wants to die at home and I am doing everything possible to make her wish come true, Within the last 6 months my son has been showing signs of mental illness. Yes he is under treatment but a diagnosis is not easily given to the mentally ill. All the Drs are in agreement there are mental health issues but a definitive diagnosis has not been given yet. I would rather god take my life and spare my son a normal life because I now realize life for him as I knew it is now over. He is no longer able to take care of himself and I will be the primary caregiver for him for the remainder of his life. I was recently taken to the hospital for symptoms of a heart attack. Thank god it was only stress. My family Dr called and asked to see me the next day after she received the ER reports. After many test and a hour long conversation ( crying uncontrollably the whole time) she says I have a true medical condition known as a broken heart. The new medication she prescribed is Xanax. This medicaton has done wonders for my pain, The horrible muscle spasms that I have endured for years are gone. My right arm used to draw up at least a dozen times daily and to be honest it hurt like h##l. Not one time has my arm drawn up since Ive started thus medication 2 days ago. Nor am I having the lower back muscle spasms. I have reduced my pain meds by half, quit taking the muscle relaxers. I know stress will cause pain to flare-up but I had no idea the effect it was having on me. My Dr sat me down and told me I have to take care of me first, then the others. Heres the kicker to that statement, Ive been taking care of everyone else for so long I dont even know how to put myself first. I would feel guilty doing so when I know they both are suffering more then I. Has anyone else been prescribed medication for nerves to discover that it helps pain?