I have had lower back pain since I had my second child in 2007. It used to come and go but now it is here with a vengeance, and to stay. I have been diagnosed with facet arthritis and SI Joint disorder. I am currently sitting at my desk and my left butt/hip hurts like EDITED and the pain is shooting down my left leg. I have to take more of the drugs than my doc gives me for a 30 day supply and I always run out before I got back to see her. I go tomorrow and I can't wait, but then I also hate myself for needing the drugs. I have been in full on opiate withdrawal for a week and am almost feeling better except for the back pain and some sweating and chills. But it just feels pointless because I know I will need to be back on the drugs. Luckily, I have a good job. I can work from my office or from home and no one cares as long as projects are completed, but I am just tired of this lifestyle. I have 3 kids and I have little energy for them, especially the 12 month old baby, whose portly rump and heft has exacerbated my back problems. I am set up to see a neurosurgeon on the 24th of October, EDITED /for a consult on my SI joint. I am praying so hard that whatever he does- even if it is surgery- gives me some relief. My husband is amazing and does most of the housework, but I always wonder- how long before he is fed up? I am so down. I want to be back to my old self, running around 100 miles an hour and being super mom. Can anyone tell me an uplifting story? Has anyone been where I am and had a full recovery? What did you do?