Here I am almost 8 weeks post op and you would think I would be able to start returning to normal, at least somewhat normal life.
Last night my girls and I went to the hills for an overnight campout with some friends. I didn't have to do anything except for show up. Someone had set up our tent, blown up an air mattress for me, and really gone out of her way to make it comfortable for me.
The evening was fun, lots of laughing, singing and telling stories around the campfire, good food (dutch oven potatoes and also bbq spare ribs), and it felt really good to get out and be with friends. My husband is out of town on a business trip, and my son said no way was he going, so it was just the girls and I.
Anyway, should be relaxing, right? Shouldn't be a big deal, right? Wrong!!!!!!
My neck is absolutely killing me. Shoulders are spasming big time, side of my face is numb/tingly, major headache (I haven't had one this bad since surgery), and I am so frustrated. I couldn't sleep because there wasn't enough support with the air mattress and pillows. Tried to sit up for a while, but the tent wasn't tall enough in my corner. Nothing to lean against for support, so couldn't sleep in a reclined position. I finally dozed off around 4:00 a.m., and even then it was short lived. And man am I paying for it today. It hurts to even slightly move my arms, even when typing now. Argghhh!!!! Hasn't it been long enough!
When will it get better? No need to answer that, no one knows. When will I be able to go to an outing and enjoy it rather than putting a fake smile on my face and trying to be tough? Friends don't want to hear about my aches and pains, so I don't talk about it with them. I want them to see me as a person, not someone with a bad neck and chronic pain.
I guess the lesson learned is that I can't go camping again for a while. But I can't just give up on living my life. Right now it is time to go take a muscle relaxant, 2 tramadol, and crawl into my warm, soft, clean bed. For now, I give up!
Surviving chronic pain one day at a time, praying for a reprieve because living another 40 years like this doesn't sound too fun!