Hey all, I'm a 28 year old first time surgery haver (is that even a real word?). I'm one week out of my lumbar microdiscectomy surgery for my L4-L5. I'm struggling with a lot of feelings that I've never felt before and I'm having a really tough time with the whole thing. The surgery went really well and I'm managing the pain pretty well also but its everything else that comes with having gone through such a surgery.
I have my boyfriend (whom I've lived with for several years) and my parents (who came from across the country to help) to whom I am very greatful to have but I feel incredibly guilty. That is what I am struggling with the most. Everyone has to help me, I cant do anything on my own. It's driving my up the proverbial wall.
I don't like feeling like a burden to everyone and that's how I feel. Everyone keeps telling me that I'm not, but every time I have to use the bathroom, someone needs to come upstairs to help me go to the bathroom. And I pee A LOT. I normally drink a lot of water but now that I need someone to help me go, it seems like I'm drinking more water than ever. I cant get my own food, I cant get dressed on my own, I feel like I can't even think on my own. I never thought that I was someone who was super independent, but now that I need help doing everything, I'm going crazy. I've been outside twice but unfortunately, my house is situated on mostly grass (can't walk on that) and my road is on a slant (can't walk on that) so I'm stuck in the house.
I am very lucky to have the support system that I have, but I'm going crazy being in the house. And I'm feeling like a burden to everyone I love. I don't know how to make these feelings go away.
Please tell me I'm not alone and that someone might have some advice for me...
(PS I'm sorry for the rant, I've been needing to say all of this.)