I don't have my contract for some reason, but I am scared out of my mind. Please forgive me for not introducing myself. I am a single mom with one kid at home and two kids grown. I have had lower back pain my whole life. When I started having digestive issues almost 10 years ago my back pain got much worse. In November my mother died. Shortly after that I was betrayed by a very close friend. Then I lost my main source of income. Then I got it back but I lose it in May. I have struggled to find a job. This month the friend who betrayed me ramped up the betrayal and it is when I learned about it all.The friend was telling me what a failure i am, everything is my fault, and i can't do anything right. These and other issues led me to being on the edge of sanity. This lead my son to calling 911. I went to the ER and was discharged. Then so called friend conned my kid into getting a court committal saying I was a substance abuser. The ER visit was on the 3rd. I tested negative for cocaine but an unconfirmed positive for THC. The committal was on the 14th. I tested negative for THC but unconfirmed positive for cocaine. Friend did this when I have an appointment on the 23rd with my doctor. I can't reschedule this appointment because it is a med check. All the records from the hospital were sent to my pcp. The pain clinic is part of the same system so they can see all of this. I am on h hydrocodone for the pain. It makes somethings I can't do with the pain possible. Having them take it away for any period longer than a few months will hurt my chances of being able to work. I am lucky for the moment that I have income to get me by until May. I also don't want to lose this doctor. He is one of the few doctors determined to get to the bottom of my pain and hopefully find a solution to get me off the medicine. My stupid insurance company keeps denying a test he orders that may tell us what is going on. I so much want this pain to just be gone rather than managing it with drugs. But in the meantime the drugs are helping me.I am so scared and feel so alone. No amount of research can ease my mind until my appointment on Thursday. If it wasn't a med check I would just reschedule and bury the records with new ones. I hate that my life fell apart and things happened to put all this in jeopardy. I can't function with all the stress going on. All my stress without risking discharge is enough and from the stories i read on here, I am not alone in this.