OK I just typed this whole thing in detail and lost it!!! ARG So I am going to do a short version.
over the past year I have noticed that depression has slowly been setting in. My symptoms include:
Loss of interest, fatigue, insomnia, some weeks I have an increased appetite and other weeks I have a decreased appetite (IE: some weeks I can't get enough food and others I will drink my coffee at 5am and eat a banana at 6 am and not eat anything else all day until almost bedtime I MIGHT eat a small bowl of popcorn),feeling of worthlessness or that I am a piece of S**T because I dont do the things that I used to, depressed mood in general, small things aggrivate me easily and I can't seem to let them go, I tend to snap or raise my voice quickly over small things,I feel guilty for being me OR because I have back, SI joint, hip, and leg pain, I couldn't care less about cleaning the house and I used to be a neat freak.
Those are the main things that are bugging me. The sleep thing really bugs me also. I cant say that I have total insomnia, it is more of an erratic or broken up. I will go to bed around 10 sometimes 11 if my certain shows are on. I will lay there for a good hour before falling asleep! During this hour I do have pain that at times wakes me or keeps me awake but it is more from thinking about my pain and how it is effected my life in a negative way. Then I clear my head and listen to the radio on a soothing station and fall asleep. However, I wake up EVERY 45-60 minutes. Then it takes me at least 30-60 minutes to fall back to sleep. This happens all night long. On the REALLY BAD nights it is worse. Like 2 nights ago I went to bed at 10 I layed there, tossed and turned and then just relaxed my whole body. The last time I looked at the clock it was 12:30am. I know it probably took a good 20-30 minutes after that to fall asleep. THEN I woke up at 2:07am and stayed awake. The last time I looked at the clock it was 3:52am, so I dont THINK I fell asleep until AFTER 4 sometime. I then woke up at my normal time of 5am and stayed awake all day long. I wasn't really fatigued that day at all. Some days I have severe fatigue where I just dont want to get out of bed and when I do I just lay on the couch! on those days I usually call my niece and have her come and get my son. Because what happens is I will lay there and dose in and out of sleep. But I only sleep about 15-30 minutes. Then I will be awake for about 45 minutes, at most, and it happens again. So I try to get up and do things to get moving so I get some energy and I just cant! I have NO energy to do it, so I lay back down. Now keep in mind! This is NOT NOT NOT on the days that I dont sleep good.
Anyway to get to the point of this post. I have an appointment tomorrow (January 13th at 2:30) so the doc can go over all this with me and find the right medication for me. I have been on Amitryptiline and Nortyptiline and those are the only ones that I have tried, withOUT ANY luck at all! I have seen on here the med Cymbalta come up a lot and I did do some research on that on and it seems like it would be a good fit.
Now what other meds have you taken for this OR what other options has your doc given you?!?! I would also like to take something to help me sleep. I dont want a sleep med that I HAVE to take every night. Just on my bad nights. What options besides Lunesta and Ambien are there? I would like on that has a generic sub as my insurance only covers a portion at the register then I have to mail in the reciept and then get 80% back on my out of pocket. Also I am going to write all of this stuff down for my appointment (as far as symptoms) and bring it with me. What else (if anything)should I write down or bring to be prepared for this appointment. This is the first time that I have had an appointment JUST and ONLY for an antidepressant adn sleep aid. Any help with this would be appreciative!!! Thank you in advance and also I am SORRY this is so stinking long! I am sure I put a little too much info that I could have left out, BUT I wanted to somewhat detailed so I could get as much help as possibly. Thank you Thank you Thank you => => => MJ