Well, here I am. 2 months preop. I'm 56 -I feel like 90. It's all I can do, sometimes, to act reasonably "normal" around my friends and family. They really can't understand what it's like to recover from this surgery. And on top of it all, I have ZERO sex drive. Sorry if that's the wrong word to use in the post. If it is, then I hope the moderators will x it out. But somebody here must know what I mean. I really want to resume a normal life with my dsh (dear sweet husband) but when I try, it is so uncomfortable. Yes, I can do it. No, it isn't very "feel good." Even though my husband seems to be understanding, I feel that our relationship is being damaged by the long recovery of this surgery. My operation lasted 6 hours. There were complications and I lost lots of blood. I'm trying to ween myself off of Lortab and am down to 20 mgs a day, total. Nothing else. Can't take anything else due to fusion issues. But even though I walk at least a mile a day religously, I am most often stiff and sore. Intimacy is the farthest thing from my mind.
Oh well. Thank for letting me vent. Not really looking for answers. Just very frustrated right now.