I have not logged on to Spine Health much threw my last few surgeries. Can't remember the last time I even posted anything. The truth of the matter is I am a complete MESS. I am in the middle of recovering from my March 26th lumbar surgery hardware removal and some minor repairs.
My 2 week check up was told I had a marrow myelo prolifeative disease, meaning i have a bone marrow disease in my spine. This is new and something I will have to have treatment for as soon as they find out which is the best at this point and stage of disease. This might be some of the reasons for all the spine issues I have..
While getting tests done for MMD found out I am in need of a new cervical fusion asap so we scheduled that surgery in a few weeks. My concern is that i know i have more pain issues in arms than just neck, so am scared that i will have another surgery and still be in pain, but the stenosis is so bad that I can't wait any longer for treatment.
I have had so many surgeries I can't find the strength to be happy or even go threw this anymore. I'm 31 and this is surgery number 10, I use to be so proud of how low of pain meds i was on and now I am so depressed on the amount of meds in general I have to take.
Have I mentioned the pain OMG its so bad but I hate to even say the word PAIN, another thing is not fair that I can not get pain relief that often and not sure if this is ever going to get better?