I was awarded SSD today! The first thing I did was cry my eyes out. It took awhile for the happiness to come. I am relieved and sad all at the same time. Have any of you been through this? I knew I was disabled but to have SSD agree somehow cements it further. I've known for some time now that I will never be well, I've stopped hoping for a way out. I've realized it's easier to work with my limitations rather than fight them. I have hope that I can somehow still lead a good life in this disabled body. I want to thank everyone who has helped me through this process. I wish all of you the best in your difficult back journies. I wish you the best luck with SSD. Be honest, be yourself.