Hi to everyone,
I am extremely frustrated and I don't know what to do anymore. I had the AxiaLIF fusion on OCt. 29, 2009. WOW, was that a mistake. I am in worse pain now than I was before surgery. I now have horrible pain in my lower back,pelvis, hip & right leg.
I am taking Tramadol 50mg's 3x a day. This is not cutting it for me. I can't seem to make my Pain Dr. understand that it's not enough. Then, they make me feel like I'm a pill popper because I'm still in pain and asking for something stronger. I got that surgery to NOT have to take pills anymore, do they NOT understand this? I am miserable every single day.
They suggested that the hardware needs to be taken out. Well that's just great!? I can't take off anymore work, financially it would ruin me, and quite honestly the recovery is not something I care to go through again. I'm a Mom with 3 children, I was very physically active before all this back crap started and I don't see why I should have to live this way for the rest of my life.
What do I do? Do I go to a different pain Dr. ? Is that possible? Mine said he doesn't want me on hydrocodone or anything else like that because this is going to be a long term, chronic pain management. Well, YIPPIE. So, when is my pain going to be managed then???
I'm sorry for being such a downer. I just need/want someone to understand what I'm going through. I want someone to listen and HELP me be able to live my life the way it should be lived. Everything I plan to do revolves around my back pain. "No I'm sorry, I can't go to the ball game because sitting on bleachers OR sitting in general hurts me". It's ridiculous and I'm sick of it.
I realize my fate from my failed surgery. I was told I'll never be 100% again. Fine. I try so hard to keep my positive attitude. I lie to everyone when they ask me how I'm feeling because who wants to listen to someones problems all the time? Heck, I'm even sick of my problem!! It consumes my everyday life.
Please, does any one have ANY suggestions at all? Any would be greatly appreciated. Thanks for listening to my rant.