To made for pain, guaranteed for life! Things were going so good before the incident with the kid who crashed his motocross motorcycle. The last surgery seemed to be successful, just like so many before. Why did he have to crash? why did everyone run over him? and why did I have to be the only one there at that point?
I saw my P.M. Dr. my pain management Psych and my surgeon yesterday. Each one said well if it all happened again. Would you do the same thing? I said of course, I would have no choice! They all said the same thing. Well you did the right thing. But I have to think, there were over a hundred healthy people there. Just not where they needed to be. Where I was!
I haven't been on her much lately. At first it was because of taking care of my mother due to her terminal cancer. But there has been down time. Where I could have come on. I just didn't. I'm in more and more pain every day, and depressed. The P.M. team want me to add Abilify to my anti depressant. I have to say. Over the many years, Ive tried so many different things with such terrible results ( being a "backwards med guy") that I'm afraid to try anything new. Hell, I was cutting things down or out and proud of it. I damn sure don't want to go down the road of more again. I'm already right back up there on my meds. And that really bothers me!
Well I guess that's why I haven't been on here much. I just DON"T have anything good to say! Been there done that!
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You get what you get, not what you deserve......I stole that from Susan (rip)
Today is yours to embrace........ for tomorrow, who knows what might be starring you in the face!