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Hello, I am new to your site. My psychiatrist the other day suggested that maybe I should go inpatient and medically detox off all my meds. She said that way I can have a new baseline and then go from there.
I've been on pain medication steady since 2012. It doesn't work any longer and hasn't for a long time. I'm also on a lot of mood altering medications for depression , anxiety and all that comes with chronic pain, those too have stopped working for me.
I have thought about detoxing for some time now due to the amount and different meds I take daily. It can't be good for my body. My question is though, if I went through detox, would my pain management doctor still work with me? I don't want to be labeled an addict or anything negative. But like my psychiatrist said, I'm only going up from here. If I detox, I can start fresh on lower doses of meds possibly.
I do not feel any side effects of my meds. Like I don't get euphoria or anything like that. And I don't sleep even when I take Ambien and other medications. My xanax for my panic attacks doesn't work either.
I can remember a time when I would just take a bite of my .5mg xanax and that was almost too much to function. Now I can take 2 (1mg) tablets and it's like I've taken candy. My panic attacks are not stopped and I don't get sleepy.
I plan on talking to my pain management dr on April 12 at my appointment about this. But I'm afraid he will think I'm abusing my meds. I am not. I have never run out of medications before it was time to refill, they've never been stolen or lost. I take urine drug screens almost monthly at my PM Dr appt. And I've never failed or had any issues.
I just read about these detox places and they all talk about "your addiction" and 12 step program, etc. It is extremely possible I have a dependence on my medications because I've been taking them since 2012, but I don't "crave" my medicine. I take it when its needed for pain. I've never been one to have an addictive personality. No issues with alcohol or street drugs ever. (To be honest, I'm afraid of getting in trouble, lol, yes even at age 43) I have many police officers in my family and it would kill me if I let them down by breaking the law. I don't get a "High" when I take my meds either. Which is good because I'm a control freak and you can't be in control if your high. I did feel loopy back in 2008 and 2012 when I first started taking them. But now I've built up a tolerance to them I guess and that is why they aren't as effective in controlling my pain as they were in the beginning. Ppl say to me why don't you smoke pot? Well, comes back to control. One evening my son was a year old. My husband was working a midnight shift I was off work, so, after I put our son to bed I had some beers while watching a movie. Well, my son woke up just as I was making my way to bed and he had a fever of 103 and a bad croopy cough. He needed to be seen by a dr. But I couldn't drive I drank 3 or 4 beers. So I had to call 911. That day I swore I'd never do anything like that ever again. And I haven't. I was an EMT and I had to call someone else for help. That destroyed me, I felt like a failure an idiot. I punished myself for a very long time. So now you know a little bit about me. And how things affect me.
So, if I do this detox, will I then be labeled an addict? Would I have to do a 12 step? What i want to get out of detox is this, i want to be on less medications and lower doses that will control my pain. If I don't do detox, I can only go up from here. More meds, higher doses, etc. I'm hoping detox will rid me of the tolerance my body has built up.
Has anyone done this? Know of anyone who has? Can someone please help me with this??
Thank you so much, sorry it's so long, but I need you to understand my psyche.