I am a 37 year old wife and mother of two teen boys. I had a very active 20-something period, but my 30s haven't been the greatest. My immune system doesn't like me very much...or too much...I can't decide. I was in ICU in 2002 for a mini-stroke/Belles Palsy (that's another story). I was diagnosed with Graves and Hashimotos diseases two years ago, have RA, and just had two female surgeries late last year with a hysterectomy in Nov 07.
My journey to ACDF started three months ago. I sat up in bed and felt a 'ping' and here I am...getting ready to have surgery on the C5/C6 in 5 days.
The pain is so horrible, I can't even describe it. I have been sleeping on the love seat since it happened. I have been through the conservative treatments, then started seeing a wonderful pain doc who 'juiced' me as he called it (lots of muscle relaxers and percocet). Then, had the MRI, and the pain doc said "you need surgery ASAP", "it looks like it exploded". Then he walked out, leaving me sitting there with a stunned look on my face. That was three weeks ago. Since then, I have been to my surgical consult, which was two weeks ago, and he got me in as soon as he could.
I don't know about anyone else, but I asked my surgeon a TON of questions. I wanted to see statistics, his drivers license (he looks like he is twenty years old, haha), results from other procedures similar to mine, etc.
The reason I am writing is to get advice about the mind-set before this surgery. I keep having this feeling of doom and gloom...like I'm not going to make it back home after the surgery. Has anyone else experienced this? Is it normal? I know there are many risks and complications, including death, but I can't shake this feeling. I don't want to go into surgery with it, because I believe in the whole mind over matter thing. My endo doc said she would write me an anxiety pill, but it makes you bleed so better not.
Thanks for any input you may have.