I have been receiving emails from this website for about 5 months, I guess I signed up to help me mentally. I have had chronic pain for many years, it started back in 1995-96, I didnt pay much attention back then to what was about to become the horror of every night and sometimes days of my life. I know this is going to be a long story but for some reason I feel a bit liberated by telling whomever wants to read it. I am now 43 years old, I live and breathe severe pain in my lower back, especially my right hip and leg. It is more painful for me to lay down than in any other position. So my sleep has been so disrupted for more than 14 years now. There have been times when I have been to the doctor, (many different kinds over the years) and have reached the point of just asking for some kind of sleeping medicine, because the Vicodin, Flexeril, and a multitude of other meds just dont cut the mustard. I have a medicine cabinet full of these, that I never finished because they never even touched the pain, I did take the anti-inflamatory meds as perscribed. So when I was 41, 2years ago.. I thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown due to the pain and most of all not being able to get any sleep! I was referred to a Pain Management Doctor, who quickly scheduled me for a series of 3 bi-weekly treatments of injections. No not steroids..it was some form of him inflating my discs L1/2 & L3/4 with some kind of gel. Well 4 treatments later (over 2 months) I was cured, couldnt wait to go home in the middle of the day and go to sleep! I was great for 2 months, then I was back to square 1! Which the DR. said COULD happen. I need someone out there to at least correlate the pain and frustration, someone to say that they have been in such severe, debilitating pain that they thought they would mentally go crazy. I have so much more to say, and I am so tired right now, I could keep going on and on but not very confident that I could be literate, I should have been asleep many hours ago (in a normal world) but I cannot lay down anymore due to the pain and mental stress! Am I going crazy? Can anyone relate? Wow I just realized how long this is...sorry.