You are obviously not suffering the same cervical pain that I am because then you would have a better idea of the pain, frustration, and despair that are my frequent visitors. No, I'm not wishing this on you or anyone else, but I do wish there was some way for you to understand what persistent pain feels like, even after taking prescription pain meds.
No I don't smile as much, do as much, or laugh as much as I used to do. Well, it's hard for me to stay focused and I spend a lot of time trying to come to grips with the state of my health. If it seems like I am not spending quite as much quality time with you, it's not because there's another chick on the side - it's because the right side of my neck, shoulder, arm and hand keep telling my brain they are painfully unhappy with life.
I'm also sorry that you can't seem to understand that sickness and laziness are not the same thing. So if you find me sitting home doing nothing, it doesn't mean that I have given up on reaching goals and building a wonderful life. It means that I've been trying to get comfortable while sitting, lying, standing or being in any other position that will make the pain stop for a few moments. If I go to bed early, it's not because I'm not interested in you, it just means I 'm tired of living in the half awake/half asleep-twilight induced by pain meds.
I haven't given up hope. I'm just trying to figure out the rules of the new game that life is playing.