Hi all my friends, I haven't posted for a while due to chronic fatigue and depression. I feel this can be attributed to the 60 mgs of oxycodone I take daily for pain.
I have tried to cut back and I did manage to go from 100 to 60 mgs a day. I also have PTSD with anxiety and major deppresive disorder.. I have tried several time to cut back and I usually make it about 12 hours when I get hit with pain, but worse than ever. It heels like the nerve endings in my likes and feet are on fire and I can't keep them still because of the pain. It's different than my regular back and leg pain, and is worse in many ways. It's like nueropathy. Of course then I take my pain meds and meds for nueropathy and it takes 2 hours of hell to get it back under control.
I am writing this because I am desperate to find a solution. My life is very bad now and it feels like I care about very little which included my self. I take naps more than ever and my mood can take a nose dive in a minute. I really don't know what to do, so I just thought I'd through it out there and see if anyone has dealt with anything like this.
Sometimes I just truly feel like dieing and giving up. I want to get off the pain meds and I see it's easier said than done since I've been on them for so long now.
Any comments will be helpful. I'm not living, I am exsisting and suffering everyday and my friends and family find it hard to help since I never feel like do anything or going anywhere.
Ok, that's about it and thank you for reading this.
Al, hurting in Cincinnati