Sometimes when friends ask if I'm feeling better, It just makes me more depressed because the only answer I can give them is NO! I know that they really care and are hoping that my answer is going to be that I'm doing better.
I'm very lucky to have a good support group of friends and family that help me with chores and things around the house, but depression has become my most frequent visitor. I know they all mean only the best when they ask about my health, but at times I just wish that they'd just not ask, even if just for a week, so that I could at least pretend that things are getting better. When they ask it brings it right back to the forefront, and the depression just smacks me right in the face again.
The beast in the room just doesn't want to leave me alone. I have a surgery coming up to replace my shoulder, which has been deteriorating badly and was supposed to be done earlier this year until my neck decided it wanted to be first in line. And after all of that something still has to be done with my lumbar which has a herniated disc and a huge amount of scar tissue. My surgeon doesn't want to repair the herniated disc because he thinks most of the pain is coming from scar tissue and he can't do anything about that.
guess I just needed to vent a little, pretty much just feeling sorry for myself.
Hope all are having relatively pain free night.