In early May I started with a bout of sciatica that I wrote off as a flare. Turns out that within a month I could barely walk, and had a micro surgery on July 19th. A few days before that I accidentally fell in my living room on the right, and bad, side.
I was grateful to awake from surgery (before the surgery, for a few days, I was on a morphine pump) with no pain, but found it hard to deal with the numbness in the right buttock, calf and foot. It's improved everywhere but the foot. It's still awkward to walk, but I have next to no strength to do anything like put on or remove shoes, much less drive.
So I'm on extended medical leave from my job. A major, I think, depression has set in. As my wife works, and the kids have been away and now back in school, I've been terribly alone. We have no family here...mine's one the east coast, hers on the west. I miss going to work, although it seems as if they're doing OK without me. I'm worried I won't gain the strength to use the right foot for driving.
I've been able to go to church since late May. One attempt in June was a disaster, as I couldn't sit or stand without level 10 pain. I watch Mass daily, but it's not the same.
I loved walking, and usually did 3-5 miles per day when I could...now 100 feet wipes me out. Everything from walking, which I am scared to do by myself, to showering is exhausting.
It's certainly not that I wish the pain would return...the night of the fall, my wife took me to the ER, and I explained that on a scale of 1 to 10 it was a 20...ER offered little help, so I almost took a whole bottle of Demerol. So I don't miss the pain, but am struggling with this recovery...the physical changes, loneliness, uselessness, and such.
So I'm seeking advice on how others dealt with this. Thanks.