I am having my second spinal fusion in 3 years next week, and I guess just have some questions and concerns. I don't remember much from my last surgery because I was 12 at the time, on heavy pain meds, and kinda traumatized to the point where I'm apparently blocking a lot of it out. I'm very scared, because from what I do remember, there was excruciating pain all the time in early recovery. Is there anything that people do to cope with it? What is it like? I'm only 15 and scared as hell, so any kind of comments regarding the subject would be amazing.