Hello, I am Lyle 35m on disabillity and I have crushed discs and verts in lower and upper back. ;.( I am feeling really spaced out and not my self. I can feel muscle spasms making my neck really hurt. I am scared and nervous all the time. I have no one around me to really talk to. Basically all alone in pain and hell. But it makes my head feel numb. Well my whole body starts feeling numb if I try to get up and do anything. My doctors don't know what to do with me. I have had scans done. Then another big problem is my pain managment is 147 or so miles away and I am the only one that can drive. It feels like I need to be massaged down every day but have no one that can do it. Then I live so far out of town I have to be able to drive and lately I have been too scared to drive. I have a pump in me that puts dilaudid straight to my back so the ER will have nothing to do with me. Then top everything off I am reallllly over weight and feel hungry even when I shouldn't be hungry. But I am trying so hard to make my weight go down. Just really hard in this condition. I am so scared. Anyone? Please anyone have the same type of problem? Please? Hate being stuck in bed and no one to talk about this to.
My daily goal is to survive the pain