Hi everyone, I've my first back surgery 20 yrs ago (L4-L5-S1 posterior fusion), 14 yrs ago two more surgeries came (same level anterior fusion) and since then the pain had never left. I've lived with chronic lower back and left leg pain since 2001 and it has affected my whole life. I had to quit my job back in 2004, it affected my marriage back then because my spouse never understood what I was going through, not even my mom could. I entered into a huge depression era of my life that thankfully I had learn to manage relatevely well, but the problem lies in the treatment for my pain.
I've had had any kind of epidural injection you can imagine, I've tried every medicine there is, every opioid, and my pain always gets used to the dosage, I need to receive more, and I end up developing an hyperalgesia and then I have to option but to go through a detox program go cold turkey on my meds, I had the most horrible pain I've ever experience in my life, all to just start the cycle all over again. I have had to go thorough detox 3 times already.
I had a neurostimulator implanted in 2012 and so far it doesn't make a difference, it okay helped if the pain level is very low. Now Drs are proposing that I get a drug pump implanted but I'm afraid, and obviously I don't want tango through another surgery (I have 5 back surgeries plus several other surgeries for a total of 11 and I'm only 43). They just prescribed me butrons patches but they're sure I will develop an hyperalgesia again and will end up in a detox again and they say I can't keep having my body go through that. And let's be clear is not that I get hook up on pain meds, I hate them, is that my pain gets used to the dosage to fast they need to increase it and eventually the same medicines causes the pain (they say...)
I just separated from my current spouse. She was very supportive of my pain when we met but she's not anymore, she says I'm always in pain and I'm always complaining. We have been together for 5 years and even though the relationship was stranded I feel really lonely living alone with just my dog.
I have looked for support groups to assist all over town but there are none where I live.
I need to reach out to people who is going through the same or similar problems as me who can understand me.
Also if somebody has a positive experience with the drug pump or a negative one please share it with me.
Thanks a good night