hello. I am 20 years old and have had a very traumatic time since I was 16. I have been suffering from chronic pain for nearly 5 years now, I have had multiple injections and 3 major surgeries on my spine, the most recent being a 3 level fusion last October. I normally cope quite well but I have hit a wall now in terms of my mental because this is going on so long and I think things are really getting on top of me.
I have lost all my confidence and I have very low self esteem, I don't want to meet my friends, I get very nervous talking to people and I don't want to leave the house. I make myself go outside because I know I am not helping myself by cutting myself off. I also get bad dreams about surgeries and flashbacks of time spent in hospital.
I have never admitted how low I get and how anxious I get because I always tell myself that this is normal and comes with having pain. I am wondering if these feelings are normal or should I tell my doctor about it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.