That was the only topic I wanted to talk about but now there are 2. When I,m feeling pretty good, pain under control, depression in check, motivated, ect. It scares me. Because I know that 2 days, 2 weeks, or maybe even 2 months something will happen. And in most cases I don't know why, but the roller coaster ride gets to the top and then hold on for dear life! Because all that was good is gone. replaced by pain, agony, depression, no motivation, no happiness, ect. And back to taking the maximum amount of meds. and still in pain (with a fuzzy head) Now to number 2. Today after feeling great for 1 week. I was having some work done to my house, The type of stuff that I enjoy doing, but know better, so it was hired out. Well I guess I just had to be one of the boys and be involved. So I grabbed 2, 5 gallon buckets of material, because I knew where it was and didn't want to ask the people I'm paying to do it. And I guess I had a moment of insanity. This isn't my "first picnic" I've been riding this roller coaster for a very long time. I deserve everything that's happening to me. and maybe a spanking or something. I guess I'll just never learn. Or....don't want to. I have a ticket to ride, but not one to get off! Good luck,Jim Or stupid, as the case may be.
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You get what you get, not what you deserve......I stole that from Susan (rip)
Today is yours to embrace........ for tomorrow, who knows what might be starring you in the face!